I've been a stepmom for 12 days now. But we just say mom, or mommy, or this morning, mama. I think I'll call her Ladybug. I did a search on Offsprung and didn't see anyone else using that name for their kid. I forgot to mention on my profile that I'm geeky about names and naming. I've been thinking of her handle since last fall when her dad and I had only been dating about four months.
But now - NOW! She is MINE - whahahahaha!!!!!! Mine to read to at bedtime and drive to day care and help her get dressed and hurry along and love and cuddle and laugh with.
But she had another mom first. For two years, two months and 29 days, she had the most wonderful mom in the world. But then that mom died. My new mother-in-law told me that before Ladybug's first mom died, she was the happiest child you ever saw. Then, she didn't smile for a year.
Ladybug wakes up in the night and cries. She doesn't sound like a 5-year-old crying at those times. She sounds like a 2-year-old who just lost her mommy. It is so horrible. My poor baby. My poor husband. I'm widowed, too, so I understand losing a spouse. But until just the other night I did not comprehend how much a widowed parent has to go through. It happened three years ago and I want to cry for her now. I have.
I don't think anyone told me how much it hurts to be a mom.
Or did you?