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Bring on the tears

Lots of crying today. Happy crying, grumpy crying, spilled-milk crying...just crying. I've been kind of hyper-emotional lately.

The crying over spilled milk (okay, iced tea, but still) is kind of self-explanatory.

The grumpy crying is over wanting to call various dear friends and have them squeal over the phone and be happy for me. At least I got to call my midwife, who did indeed squeal and dance around her living room.

So yeah, you know the happy crying now. Baby #2 should be here sometime around my birthday, so late May/early June. I didn't expect to get pregnant so easily this time. It's amazing what a line on a stupid pregancy test will do to you. I've spent the last week sick and miserable and snapping at everyone (when I'm not crying, that is). I hate being feeling like crap and having to assume that it's just PMS. Feeling like crap and knowing it's because you're pregnant is totally, 100% different. Moose and I have done lots of happy dances today, though we aren't going to tell him or our families (or, really, anyone but the midwife and you lovely imaginary internet people) for a few months yet. The hell my father-in-law put me through is a little too fresh in my mind. I need to tell SOMEONE or risk losing my mind entirely, so tag, you're it!

P.S. I had a crazily vivid dream this morning, a few hours before I took the test, of a little blond girl in a red jumper laughing and waving at me through the kitchen screen door. Any bets on gender?

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Comment by MamatothaMax on September 26, 2011 at 2:01pm: Congratulations! Wishing you many happy dances to come!

Comment by mcglory13 on September 26, 2011 at 2:44pm: Congrats! I'm so pleased to hear this! :) I hope your dream is right. I always always knew Smudge was a boy, so I wouldn't discount it.

Comment by TommysMommy on September 26, 2011 at 8:22pm: Congrats!!!!! Yay! I knew both would be the gender they are, so I wouldn't bet against you! And we imaginary internet people will be here to cheer you on.

Comment by Herasmus B. Dragon on September 27, 2011 at 9:25am: Congratulations! I just did a little happy dance in my desk chair for you. Wishing you an easy pregnancy and a sudden and long trip for your father in law that just happens to coincide with your birthday.

Comment by kommishoner on September 27, 2011 at 2:12pm: Yay! Congrats!!!!

Comment by Kiwi on September 28, 2011 at 5:46am: Congrats!!!!

Comment by rommie on September 28, 2011 at 7:12am: We lost the baby last night. I know some people would argue that it wasn't a baby and therefore I have no reason to be unhappy about it, but it was to me. Maybe it's weird to care so early or assign names or genders to embryos, but we named her Samantha.

Thanks for your support. In a twisted sort of way, I'm very glad that someone other than my midwife, husband, and me knew she existed.

Comment by mcglory13 on September 28, 2011 at 7:38am: Oh damn. I'm sorry Rommie.

Comment by Diggy on September 28, 2011 at 8:35am: I'm so sorry.

Comment by mightyninjamom on September 28, 2011 at 10:00am: I named the baby I lost, too. To me, he was already taking on a form and personality. You can't stop your mind from pondering these things when it's something happening in your own body. Therefore, your baby existed in a very real way, even if only two other people knew. You have every right to grieve that loss and those expectations - it's hard though when no one knows why and if you have to spell it out, they usually say the wrong thing. Try not to be too angry - a lot of them probably don't know what it's like.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. It's so wrong when the babies we want so badly don't make it. Big hugs, girl. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

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